I do need to carry and haven't for sometime. I ref

I do need to carry and haven't for sometime. I refuse to chamber my Glock (old (second generation) as with my age I want more time to think before I pull. Once that leaves the muzzle there is no turning back...besides that I'm having carpal tunnel (soon) and also the elbow Ulnar nerve, move the damn nerve.....will also do the left a bit later. Good surgeon he did my right and left shoulders back in 2010/11