I've been broke for six months throwing everything

I've been broke for six months throwing everything this I have at this, I should have alot more shares than I currently have, but I bought stupid, thankful I've been able to bring my average from .026 to .011 just over a million. Every time I meet a share goal , Im making new goals, I'm a addicted gambler for Utopya and a desperate believer in this company. Rowing as fast and hard as I can hoping to find land.