My dear backbone: The fact that you mentioned ''Su

My dear backbone: The fact that you mentioned ''Suze'' in your post was most meaningful, for it is because of my loss of her, that aI have been feeling so particularly miserable today! And the reason why is because yesterday, I FINALLY decided to go on ahead & hang up some beautiful CHRISTMAS colored light strands on our very humble little 55 year old mobile home, the which BEAUTIFUL COLORS, ''Suze'' always enjoyed SO much! So, yesterday was a particularly trying day for me, to go on ahead IN FAITH, to hang them up, even thought I knew that she was not here, & going to be able to see them, or share them, with me! I am so lonely & desvestated, as to a reason & desire for wanting to live, because she is gone, and has been taken away from me by GOD, the FATHER! I am having an extremely difficult time in trying to reconcile all of this SUPPOSED CHRISTIAN STUFF, and yet I have been a born again believer, as ''they'' say it, since APRIL 19th, 1968, when I was 24 & 1/2 years of age as a college senior. There is simply just TOO MUCH that we can't figure out, or know the answers to. So, backbone, thank you SO MUCH for your mention about ''Suze'', for I was TOTALLY not expecting any thing/awareness about ''something'' like that, from someone who has been following my posts! How brain dead the liehub people are, or else, ''they'' most definitely have AN AGENDA for the making & lust of money! I love you, broe! Sincerely, Jaime