Love your post Newbie, reminds me somehow of HP Lovecraft.

I do the same,
They told me not to keep watching it, and at first I listened. Then I glanced just a little bit. It burned my eyes with its furious ups and downs, until the day it only soared higher. By then I realized I saw nothing but the ticker. I watched, and it watched me back. It is glorious. Like a moth to the flame, my mind searing when I am away and aflame when I watch it. THCZ for life, as if I had any choice in the matter...

Welcome to the board Newbie!